I've been gone again, I suck.

Anywhoo, so between my last post and now I decided to be vegan. I bet your expecting some ironic way of me saying I suck at it right? Well I didn't. For the time I was doing it. For me the problem was getting so close to Jaydens birthday and the holidays (my husband has 2 months off for the holidays) we are scrimping and saving like mad. There are weeks where with our savings put aside we barely have food money so we live off of ramen and pork (pork being cheaper than meat substitutes). So I am doing ok with vegan, when I keep up with it. I dont find myself craving meat, and its ok! The last time I went vegan shopping I spent around 350 because I looked up meals online, and tried to plan by meal. While the food did last me 3 weeks, I didn't keep to the meal plans like I should have. So today im gonna go shopping again, full vega, and jut play by tummy.
Protein; greek yogurts, beans, lentils, soybeans, and Boca! (tofu and tempeh make me sick and I have yet to try seitan but I heard its good?)
Calcium: Soy milk, coconut milk, collard greens, turnip greens, kale, calcium fortified O.J.
Carbs: bagels, potatoes, brown rice, fruit.
Fiber: Pretty much everything in the list above is good for fiber:)
Ill post a list of all that I ended up getting and what the price ended up being.

The Pit Smoothie

1 Blender

1 Apple

1 Plum

1 Peach

6-7 Rainier Cherries

Large handful of spinach

Large handful of kale

1 cup of ice

"Pit" all of the fruits, I like to slice them starting at the top and going fully around, and then pulling both sides apart. Keeping all the skin on the fruit toss them into the blender, followed by the cup of ice, and layer the vegetables on top (it may be very crowded in the blender by now, if so blend what you can fit in there, and throw the rest in once theres more room). This recipes makes around 3 and a half servings so adjust if you need to, I just really don't like not using all the fruit!

     Here are some health benefits of green smoothies from Greensmoothiesblog.com

1. Green smoothies are very nutritious. The ratio in them is optimal for human consumption; about 60% ripe organic fruit mixed with about 40% organic greens.

2. Green smoothies are easy to digest. When blended well, most of the cells in the greens and fruits are ruptured, making the valuable nutrients easy for the body to assimilate. Green smoothies literally start to get absorbed in your mouth.

3. Green smoothies, as opposed to juices, are a complete food because they still have fiber. Consuming fiber is important for our elimination system.

4. Green smoothies belong to the most palatable dishes for all humans of all ages. With a ratio of fruits to veggies as 60:40 the fruit taste dominates the flavor, yet at the same time the greens balance out the sweetness of the fruit, adding a nice zest to it. People who eat a standard American diet enjoy the taste of green smoothies. They are usually quite surprised that something so green could taste so nice.

5. A molecule of chlorophyll closely resembles a molecule of human blood. According to teachings of Dr. Ann Wigmore, "consuming chlorophyll is like receiving a healthy blood transfusion". Many people do not consume enough greens, even those who stay on a raw food diet. By drinking two or three cups of green smoothies daily you will consume enough greens for the day to nourish your body, and all of the beneficial nutrients will be well assimilated.

6. Green smoothies are easy to make, and quick to clean up after. In contrast, juicing greens is time consuming, messy, and expensive. Many people abandon drinking green juices on a regular basis for those reasons. To prepare a pitcher of green smoothie takes less than 5 minutes, including cleaning.

7. Green smoothies have proven to be loved by children of all ages, including babies of six or more months old. Of course you have to be careful and slowly increase the amount of smoothies to avoid food allergies.

8. When consuming your greens in the form of green smoothies, you are greatly reducing the consumption of oils and salt in your diet.

9. Regular consumption of green smoothies forms a good habit of eating greens. After a few weeks of drinking green smoothies, most people start to crave and enjoy eating more greens. Eating enough greens is often a problem with many people, especially children.

10. While fresh is always best, green smoothies will keep in cool temperatures for up to three days, which can be handy at work and while traveling.

I am an awful person.

Its been a while since I have posted anything. I hate myself for it! Lately though, and this is exciting people, I HAVE HAD A LIFE!! Maybe 3 posts back, I posted about forcing myself to be more open with people, and just being nice and forming bonds, and I have a life now! I have 3 parties this month, go out with at least 3 different people a week (not all night-time, I am a mother people) and people invite ME to go places! I feel so much happier, im quite a bit more active, and since there are people now that will drop in for no reason I now have made keeping my house constantly clean a priority, which means im on my feet a lot more! Down side to having a life? No time for the gym! I have found that I dont adjust easily, so when a bigger change occurs in my life, ill go through a vegging phase after the initial shock is dealt with, and I dont know why i'm that way! Its not very convenient though:( Has anyone else noticed those types of patterns in themselves?

    Well i've decided something that DOES have to do with fitness and diet, Im going to be a vegan! For 6 out of seven days a week. Now I know some people are going to be offended by me only being a vegan for dietary reasons "Vegan is a lifestyle for people against the murder of animals and boycotting animal by-products" let me say this to you, as long as there is one more family that is drinking only soymilk, what does it matter why? Thats exactly the presumptuous way of thinking that stops other people from wanting to try to be vegan. I have already heard from 4 people "Yewww why would you want to be vegan those people are so stuck up!" Your making these stereotypes vegans, not me.

    Any-whoo, I have decided to be vegan. I went a whole week, and I have already discovered that I cannot stand tempeh or soy. This is gonna be a rough road. I have only tried silken soy, and I only used it as scrambled eggs and maybe thats why I hated it, so im going to try a few more things, because obvious I need some kind of protein in my diet. I havent yet been creative as I have hoped with vegan meals, like I said I am slow to adjust, and all the cooking, or even just throwing foods together to make something delicious, is lost to me for some reason, but I will learn. I am determined to get this right!

     This is all i've got for you yet, but please let me know if there is anything you want me to spend days researching to write about, or any help at all!

 

I forgot to mention!

I got a bikini wax. First one ever and a full brazilian. It took me weeks of researching about the technic and looking for the best spa and the best waxer, I was extremely nervous. This being my first time I knew barely anything about the procedure so I was reading horror stories about woman who had to get on all fours and spread 'em wide and oh dear lord the thought makes me nauseous.
I was determined though. My husband came home that day, and I wanted to surprise him. But I am a big girl. I was terrified that I would get someone unprofessional who made a face at the sight of my thighs or the layer of chunk that hangs towards my groan. TERRIFIED.
  So I went to yelp for help with finding the best and I did and she was very professional, and if it weren't for the little bit of pain, it would have been almost enjoyable. (and I didnt have to get on my knees once!) Anyway I wrote this to let you know you don't have to suffer with shaving because your ashamed. Take to the review websites in your town, or walk around town and seek out places then go home and search reviews, but find someone who has a  TON of good recommendations. Chances are they have had quite a few big ladies and aren't shy about a bit of flab here and there.
DONT try to save time just looking at a couple of reviews!!! Honestly my first thought was, this woman is gonna be as intimate with my hoo-ha as my husband is, this has to be a lifelong relationship.

Comfort.

Lately I have been noticing that my body image, is way off the radar.
Maybe its that ive been going to the gym so much lately, maybe its that ive been following tumblr thinspo like crazy I dont know. But theres a huge difference.
    One big difference? I used to think Beyonce and Rihanna, had fabulous bodies. I mean absolutely amazing fabulous bodies. Now, when I look at them all I can think is FAT.
Literally fat. I always used to wonder why everyone said they were so brave, cause they didn't give in to the stick thin image. I wondered what the hell are they brave for?! They're so hot! Well now I understand why they have to be brave to do what they do, and to stay at there healthy weights. I honestly do not know why my body image has changed so. I don't know how I feel about it. Up until recently Kim Kardashian was perfect to me!

But now when I see the gorgeous Kim K all I can think is "Wow she can really use to lose 30 pounds cant she??" And thats awful! Obviously these women are way more fit that I am. Im not dissing them just to diss, I just want you to see how morphed my image of beauty has become. Now I will show you what I think is the perfect body.

 I think theres a pretty obvious difference in my choice in beautiful. Now I am happy that I definitely don't want to look anorexic, I still don't think beautiful is bones, but is this the first step? I think these woman have perfect bodies, will I one day, someday soon, think bones is beauty? Well gosh I hope not. Although, I recently went five days without eating. I would like to say I did it for research for you guys, but I did it cause I gained 2 more pounds and went absolutely mad.My husband made me start eating again but then I gained 2 pounds instantly and he now has no leg to stand on.
Yesterday we had a talk, where I made him promise to leave me if I got to 225 plbs (20 plbs above where I was, now 17) and he promised. I have to stop. Im living in a world where Im comfortable, where I know my son and husband will love me no matter what size I am, and they will. But maybe Ive had too much comfort. Maybe a fire under my ass will finally make me run.

Im sorry!

I havent done that research on energy boosters. But I cant tell you something. I have absolutely serious trust issues. I have only ever had one best friend but I pushed her away and ruined our friendship beyond repair. Recently I completely opened up to someone who I hope to be my new friend, and told her just about my biggest secret in the world, and I feel so much better. My all over mood has improved, its been a bit easier to stick to my diet, hell I dance a little:) Point is, maybe theres something weighing you down. Maybe the key to just a little pip in your step, is telling a secret, finding someone you trust, or just making a new friend. Im telling you, since I opened up to that person, Ive been a social butterfly!

I can make excuses, and tell you that its been terribly difficult for me to do the energy research because my new history class actually challenges me (dangit!!), but you wouldnt care. I will do it! I promise!!! Till then, its a little easier for me to do little updates on tumblr, rather then write up a whole blog post, so go there and check me out!
http://fatgirlrecovering.tumblr.com/
To anyone who cares, I will be opening a twitter account, so I cant tell you more detailed things, say about what im eating, when im eating, when im at the gym, and whats pushing me through my day! I hope you choose to follow me!

Update on my increased water!

I've began noticing some differences these past couple of days that I can only account to the major increase in water.

For one, I do have a bit of a pep in my step and although I cant call it a full blown change in energy, its is nice. Im not whistling while I work but I do find myself shaking my booty when i'm loading the dishwasher. Just a little change.

My skin is glowing. We all have good days and bad days and before the water increase  I was having a few awful bad day. Im starting to notice much less bad days, Almost as if my eyes look bigger and my skin looks more even and toned. IM NOT SAYING WATER WILL MAKE YOUR EYES BIGGER AND SKIN DEWY! My skin isn't bad in the 1st place, and I've always had big brown eyes.

Great news is the peeing every drink I take has stopped. My bladder has adjusted and I dont need to go every 5 seconds thank God!